Archive for August, 2009

Moon Square Natal Pluto: It Feels Like Death

Posted in Luna, Pluto on 08/31/2009 by nemain nyx

I’m in the process of trying to let something go. Something that was at once a source of happiness and poison. The first few days are the hardest, and I made the mistake of attempting to banish something from myself while the moon is waxing (to make it extra hard).

As susceptible to the blues as i am, this is a painful morning and a painful moon/natal Pluto square.

Astrolabe says this of the transit:

You need to release some internal pressures now, but that may be difficult. Your reactions to things may be somewhat compulsive now and a challenge to manage. Physical tensions, territorial displays, and indirect manipulations are possible now.

Pluto presides over thresholds, and just as the status of the celestial body itself is a gray area, when it squares the moon it casts a shadow over emotional clarity. You feel cut off from your own feelings. The positive aspect of this is that it allows for you to put up a certain armor if necessary, however it is difficult to take that armor off when you need to. More on Moon/Pluto transits.

I’m just in a sad place and it will take time to crawl out of it and get back on my feet. This is all happening under a Sun/Saturn applying conjunct so I’m confident that the necessary changes will allow for better growth in the end. Just like cutting of the head of a basil plant to encourage more leaves. There’s a fruitful benefit, but you will miss the flower.

Oh, Uranus…

Posted in Uranus on 08/27/2009 by ananda silvermoon

I’ve been having an unstable few days (and i hardly think I’m the only one) – filled with the desire to do something impulsive, irresponsible, and utterly fun. While ago Nyx turned me on to the astrolabe natal applications page, and I’ve been following not only the astro-weather but also their interpretation of what’s going on relative to my natal chart. This is the first entry on the results page today:

Sun is Square your Uranus applying with an orb of 02 degrees 14 minutes.
Interruptions, last-minute changes in plans, surprises, and reversals may interfere with your normal routine now. You may feel restless or anxious, and could experience difficulties with authorities, rules or obligations. Conditions are unstable, so be flexible and make the most of whatever happens.

I am seriously considering doing something entirely unplanned (ok, since i’m considering it, it wouldn’t be *entirely* unplanned) and utterly irresponsible. It makes me giddy, just thinking about doing it. I might just have to.

Shit.

Venus & Uranus & Saturn: Oh My

Posted in Luna, Saturn, Scorpio, Uranus, Venus on 08/26/2009 by nemain nyx

Ananda and I have been having a flurry of emails and chat about various transits that seem to be fluffling dowdy feathers. She’s having a lunar return in Scorpio and the intoxicating effects thereof, and I’ve been suffering the upheaval of Uranus.

Just when you think that you’re fine with everything as is, here come Uranus to tell you how it really is, or sometimes how it really should be. That’s all fine and good, but without direction from the other planets, it’s a revolution without a cause.

Right now those other planets (for me) are Saturn and Venus. With the Saturn/Uranus opposition still going strong, there’s a strong sense of purpose to these inner planet transits. Venus was trine my natal Uranus over the weekend, a time when I found myself processing a lot of the inner passions that I often ignore during the busy week. Questions like: what am I really looking for? What makes me happy? What makes me healthy? And the biggie for this masochistic Scorpio, is what makes me happy also healthy? With Saturn presiding over the whole affair with the opposition says: “judge your true need for upheaval right now, it could have life-changing effects.”

Big thoughts for an otherwise low-key weekend? Why the introspective element? The blessed moon in Scorpio. Thankfully, she’s a growing moon, a productive and fruitful moon. Give Scorpio a cause célèbre and just watch things get done. Scorpio will go as far as it takes to get what it desires. Just watch out for Saturn to weigh in with a reality check.

Outside of the my natal sphere and in the current weather, the Sun is moving into conjunct with Saturn. The orb and scope is wide with this transit. This is a tremendous combination of energy and things that will need to be nipped in the bud will be cleaned out some way or another. With the transition of the seasons (blah Labor Day), I’m finding myself on the verge of transition, an electric feeling.

Grand Cross WTF?

Posted in Opposition on 08/24/2009 by ananda silvermoon

So, if my reading of the astro-weather isn’t completely upside-down (or even if it is), there’s a huge elephant sitting in the middle of the room that none of the astrology bloggers I follow have even touched. Look at it! It’s a GRAND FUCKING CROSS! I mean, people are talking about T-squares, and oppositions, but no one has put two and two together and noticed that there is a planet at all 4 points of a square, within 4 or 5 degrees. WHICH IS CALLED A GRAND CROSS. (Is no one mentioning it because Pluto is out of sign so it doesn’t count? or is it just THAT SCARY?) I mentioned this to Nyx tonight and she agreed that “there’s definitely fucked in the air lately.”

I’m really not sure what else to say about it, except that I have felt like yelling all day. I managed to keep my temper under control with only one minor flip-out at work… but the urge to just go “AAAAAAAAAAAAAUUUUGHHH!!” has not really gone away. Is it the critical degree thing? Lots of mutable energy, on the verge of bursting forth? I don’t know. I JUST FEEL LIKE YELLING ABOUT IT. AAAAAAH GRAND CROSS AAAAAAH. Totally sensible way of handling the energy, right? (Oh, and are we getting excited for Mercury Retrograde? It’s coming! WOOOOOOO!!)

Sorry for the silliness AND YELLING, it’s been a weird week or two!

Moon Heavy

Posted in Ascendant, Luna on 08/10/2009 by nemain nyx

When Ananda and I started this blog we wanted a place to share our personal experience with Astrology. So I’ve been examining my birth chart a lot lately (hence the onslaught of natal this and that posts and tweets) armed with some new insight, it’s almost as good as therapy.

I have Luna on the Ascendant, which according to Sue Thompkins, magnifies the Moon’s power throughout the rest of the aspects. This explains a lot of struggle to retain a control over my emotions (Moon Opposite Neptune, Moon Trine Saturn).

What this also means for me is that lunar transits have a magnified effect as well. As we were moving through of the Moon/Mars quintile this morning, a typically harmonic aspect, it had a sharp and derisive message for me this morning. Couple that with the current Mars/Saturn square and the Mercury/Mars square, it has been a rough morning.

But what my cutsy little daily horoscopes for Scorpio, Cancer, and Gemini are telling me is to avoid making this into a mountainous issue, as this is a volatile energy, a gaseous fume that could ignite something much larger if no precaution is heeded. I’m sick to death of the message of temperance but here is is.

So when things happen to jerk my chain enough to set off the waterworks, my Luna Ascendant is there to say DON’T YOU DARE IGNORE ME. As much as I try to control or hinder my tears (in a sad attempt to salvage any respect as a woman in this office – Mad Men, I wish you were only a beacon of the past) they will always be a powerful force in my life.

The ability to be in touch with one’s emotions (and symbolic of Luna, one’s Anima) is a beautiful gift. I hate that I do try to fight it, but sometimes there is just no crying in baseball.

Lughnasadh and The Fixed Stars

Posted in Asteroids, Galactic Center, The Great Attractor, Wheel of the Year on 08/05/2009 by nemain nyx

I am celebrating Lughnasadh today because of the powerful lunation and penumbral eclipse and the overall transition I am experiencing, both seasonal and personal.

Last night I lit a candle to the Mother for the (very) tiny little life that might be growing inside but did not come to be. These things are harder on us than we realize. So this Lughnasadh has an especially significant tone for me. Some of my natal transits for this Full Wyrt Moon and eclipse:

Mars in Gemini trine Natal Saturn
Venus in Cancer trine Natal Mercury
Jupiter in Aquarius trine Natal Moon
Sun in Leo Sextile Natal Saturn
Sun in Leo Trine Natal Eris
Isis in Pisces Trine Natal Sun
Vesta in Cancer Trine Natal Sun
Terpsichore in Taurus Opposite Natal Sun

Terpsichore, an asteroid with a cycle duration of just under 5 years, is one that I don’t know much about outside of the associated significance that her namesake has to dance. However I do feel a bit hurt that the beneficial aspects between the Sun and Isis/Vesta were either too weak to compete with the current Saturnine aspects or their significance is to impart a change in my mindset. I don’t know. Maybe it’s this moon.

I have also been considering the fixed stars and their position in my birth chart:

Great Attractor Square Mars in Virgo
Galactic Center Sextile Jupiter in Libra
Great Attractor Trine Eris in Aries
Great Attractor Trine Logos in Leo
M87 Trine Hades in Gemini

Mars in Virgo is powerful in my chart. It gives me a guilt complex like no other, and I never realized how compounded it was by it’s position to the Great Attractor. In regards to the position of Eris and Logos to the GA I believe there is has a widening scope when it comes to the Eris effect (just awesome), whereas for Logos that aspect just seems to go hand in hand (not bad).

I love my Jupiter in Libra. I have a potent Pluto/Jupiter Conjunct that lends a favorable ability to adapt or see opportunities from sudden change, a sort of “let’s look at where we go from here” attitude. In Libra, this provides an expansive, emotionally intuitive radar. Supported by the Galactic Center, the sense of well-being that comes from finding your feet after a fall is then tied to the center of life itself, one of the pathways to wholeness.

So anyway, on and on. Any further thoughts on these transits are welcome. I don’t know quite how I’m to interpret them all, though I suppose you’re supposed to meditate on them for a while. I just saw a friend smiling brightly behind a large vase of sunflowers her fiance brought her. Enjoy a beautiful Lughnasadh everyone, the harvest season begins!